post-partum, day 3

I can finally stop buying tums, my heartburn is instantly gone.

my swollen feet and hands are not so swollen anymore.

I can now see my toes ... they need a pedicure.

I'm suddenly not eating 100 times a day.

I can sleep on my back again.

looking at my boobs, you'd think I ought to be a porn star or maybe a bra model.

did I mention that I also have a beautiful new baby too?

I want to capture his smell in a bottle so I'll always have it.

I love his soft skin, it's the softest.

I've forgotten about all that precious squeaking that babies do - love that too.

right now, he is my world and I am his.

Now a family of 4!

Elliott James is here!

born 05/28 at 7:50am
7 lbs. 8oz
19 1/2" long

pictures to come soon

make a difference

the elderly grandfather was walking on the beach with his young grandson.  as they walked, the grandson would periodically stop to pick up beached starfish and toss them back into the ocean.

the grandfather leaned towards his grandchild and said "my child, your gesture is touching but will make no difference.  do you know how wide the oceans are, how vast the number of beaches, and how numerous are the starfish that become trapped on the shore?"

the child looked up as he prepared to toss yet another starfish back into the ocean and said, "yes grandfather, but it sure makes a difference to this one!"

disneyland pictures

here's a few pictures from our adventure at Disneyland.  not too many; it was just the 2 of us.  it was fun, but I was sooooo whooped after that day.  someone will definitely have to come with us next time ... any volunteers?

on the merry-go-round and loving it!

this is me looking down past my belly on the merry-go-round.  I can only buckle the strap to the very first hole ... just barely.  I surprised myself that I could even get up on the stupid horse!

strong man competition in Toontown

Sam stopped to try on some hats and wigs.  Rasta Sam - he be jammin'!

and yep, he's got a boo-boo right under his nose.  he fell off our bed in the middle of the night and must've gone down face first.  poor guy.

by the way, Mickey says Hi!

it JUST hit me

any mom will tell you how precious, beautiful, innocent and perfect the baby looks when they're sleeping.  and even though Sam is 3 1/2 years old, it brings me right back to when he was days old, just beautiful.

I've been trying to wake him up now for about 1/2 hour - it's cloudy and rainy here, and on days like today he wants to sleep forever.  anyway ...

what hit me was that I love that kid like nothing else in this world.  you think of how irate mama bears are with their cubs, and if need be that's what I'd do too ... I'd tear you to pieces if I had to; anything to keep him safe.  I broke down in tears at the thought of him thinking I would feel any different ... as if a new baby brother would steal some of it away.  but that could NEVER happen.

  

Sam has changed my life; so much more than just becoming a mommy.  God has been using him from conception - he brought a burden into our already troubled house (harsh but true), something that needed to be totally uprooted.  hubby and I split up, about to be divorced, but all that held us together at the time was Sam.  without him, our healed marriage would not have happened.  without him, things would be VERY different.  one day God gave me scripture on Sam - Hebrews 1:14 - Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?

the way I see it, Sam saved my life.  he was that angel that came to save my life.  and now that I've been healed on many levels just by his existence, I can be the best mommy I can be and raise him to know how awesome God is, so he too can inherit salvation.  isn't God amazing?!

ok, so now I'm crying ...

... so I'm a bit emotional ...

... I am about to bring another life into this world ...

which by the way is only 6 days away now.  yes, I'm a bit freaked ...

but isn't God amazing?!